Monday, February 25, 2008

Remember in the last post I said I wasn't pregnant. Well, Despite the fact that I am not physically "with child" I am still having the same feelings that I did when I was pregnant with Joel and Belle. No cravings(Chocolate doesn't count-that is a constant!)but I have been nesting. Yes, like a mama bird. Getting the whole house ready. Throwing out junk(WOW we have a lot of junk!), organizing, cleaning and getting our little girls room ready.
So in my weird mind I am hoping this is a "sign" because when Joel was born I was insisting on finishing his room and staying up until midnight to do it. We were back up at 2am when Joel decided to come 2 weeks early.
But it is funny with all of my "getting ready." I am finding that God is "getting me ready" too. He is reminding me of my purpose. A couple of weeks ago I would have told you that my main purpose was to be a wife and mother. But now I look at them as my call in life. I can go about them as a response to my purpose .Through a bunch of Godly neon signs, he has shown me my purpose, which is to "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. " Matt.22:37 For so long I have been trying to uncover my mystery purpose in life as if God had hidden it. But it was so basic to my faith and in plain site. So now starts my journey to love and worship Him with and through every thing I have. I have known this before but it seems now to becoming a part of me. Those of you who know me don't expect me to become a saint. I will disappoint you. So, with His strength I will move forward to work this commandment out in my life.